Without darkness, nothing comes to birth, As without light, nothing flowers.
As I sit here and review my life in this first 6 months of the year, I am feeling like a kaliedescope twisting around to reveal beautiful colors of light and whimsy, but also deep and thought provoking. Changes personal and professional, were non-stop! My business’ future was for the first time since I started, in jeopardy. People I thought loved and cared for me, showed me their true colors and to top it all, I lost cherished loved ones. However, here I am, still standing and feeling an optimism I have not felt in a long time. I am amazed to realize that I am so resilient. Resilient in a way I never thought I could be. I remembered whilst going through the pain, I just kept thinking, this is going to bathe me anew, I know it! And, that it did. I discovered that there are so many aspects to who I am. I have a smile on my face much like the cat that ate the canary, because I feel empowered beyond belief. I now know, that it doesn’t matter what is going on outside of me, the only thing that matters is how I feel on the inside. I respect it, I go through it and I let it go. These days, I am making my own sunshine no matter what the forecast.
All and all, my growth has been tremendous and for this I am so thankful. Looking fear in the eye and making it bow down makes me feel like a flower only half blossomed, just waiting for my chance to slowly unfold, revealing layer by delicate, beautiful layer, my beauty, my intricacy, my complexity and my intensity. Much like a beautiful complicated flower, the heart of me, the center of me is protected, and will only be revealed to those who dare to bring what it takes to get that close to have a look and drink of my intoxicating nectar.
Now I know some things for sure and they are:
I know nothing for sure
I love first, and even though it didn’t work I will love last
When I am down and out, my creativity is ready and willing
No one and I do mean no one can ever make me feel undeserving, unloved or insecure
Lying, low-self esteem, less than humble, self-centered, narcissistic people cannot be fixed with my love
Hate has one victim, yourself
Live with intention
Make choices, not regrets
Take it to the edge and even then, peak over
Live without pretending, you are not making mistakes you are learning lessons
Appreciate your friends, appreciate your friends, appreciate your friends
To thine own self be true
Without integrity, you are NOTHING!
Peace, Love & Light
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